So here I am once again. Back to the ol' xanga site. A significant amount of emotion can only do as such, which in my case, isn't for the best.

Here I sit, day in and day out, hoping that it will all be over with soon. I have no money, because I have no job. I have no job, because I have no car. I have no car, because my mom is too busy getting drunk or visiting her new fuckbuddy to take my and my car to a shop and get it fixed.

I barely see my girlfriend, maybe once a week if I'm lucky. To add to that her family clearly doesn't like me and that bothers me so much. I try to present myself to be as likeable as possible, and it still doesn't seem to happen. Things are getting scary with she and I, as well, because of my inability to succeed in life. I fear each day she's unknowningly drifting farther and farther from me. I'm hoping I'm wrong..

The only person I've ever been close to outside of girlfriends has gone away and started his own new life..and as much as he pushes the fact away, it hurts knowing that we barely see each other let alone talk anymore. I've only got 2 good friends in my life right now, and one of them just so happens to be drifting..it hurts so much..

Luckily I still have Clay here to talk to..good man indeed..indirectly there whenever he's needed..

So here I am, no money, no job, no car, people that are close to me feel like they're drifting away..and I'm left alone here sitting on my ass dwelling on this day in and day out. The way things are going I don't know if I'll every be truely 100% happy again..

Please someone let me know that I'm wrong..someone prove to me that I'm worth anything in this world..